{alltv} The Bachelor's Ashley: I Was Completely out of My Element

Three months after facing off against her best friend (on TV) on The Bachelor's dreaded two-on-one date, New York nanny Ashley Spivey, 26, is happy to report she has stopped crying ("after two weeks in hiding") and is rooting for the other Ashley. She also dished on who has sexual chemistry with Brad and why her Elvis date needed a little less conversation and a little more action.

You seemed to go into the double date defeated.
It was about defeating my own personal demons. My issue is that I always feel like there's something wrong with me. It was awkward going on a two-on-one with my best friend in the house. Another thing that really got me down about the date is that we had to dance. I hate dancing just as much as singing. I was completely out of my element – and Ashley's a dancer.

If you could do it over, would you change anything?
I would bring more of my A-game to the dancing and try to remain more positive and upbeat. I knew Ashley was really emotionally invested in Brad, more than I was. I was more in love with Ashley H. than Brad. I'd spent more time with her. But I was putting her happiness above my own which is something I tend to do in relationships.

You're currently forbidden to talk to Ashley and your exit seemed abrupt on the episode. Did you get a chance to say goodbye?
We got to hug. We talked before and said that no matter what we weren't going to have any hard feelings and if we made it to the end, we'd invite the other person to the wedding.

Is there anyone you feel is right for Brad?
After watching the show, I still feel the same way I did when I left. Emily and Ashley H. have the strongest connection with him and they meet [his] qualifications best. If everyone would quit talking about [Emily's dead fiancé] long enough, they would see that she's ready to start a new chapter in her life.

Who isn't right?
Chantal. Brad says he wants a best friend and someone to make him feel better at the end of the day, but they had more of a sexual connection.

Are you ready to get back on the horse?
The experience taught me so much about myself. Brad made me feel special and like I'm good wife material. I'm definitely ready for a relationship. I don't want to compete or convince guys to stay anymore. My confidence levels are high. I hope my crying didn't scare people away. No one likes a sad sack.